Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Strange
It's so bizarre that it takes for one of the worst breakups of my life, and for a stalker to put me back in touch with an ex.
*****
I knew for sure K was part of my past, because somewhere along the way you became the only one on my mind.
And I kinew it for certain a few days back, when I re-read patchwork paddington and behindthebear - someone needed the URLs and I gave them to him - and I felt sad.
And of course I felt sad, I was so, so sad when I wrote them. I was breaking in two - the way, I suppose, I am right now.
It's only natural that re-reading my pain reminds me of my pain then.
And after I read part of it, I closed the page, and that was that. I felt quite happy that I had something good and clean, and I didn't dwell on my past.
And then Things fell Apart.
Maybe I shoiuld have told you, but I guess maybe it was already too late.
Nine days ago you missed me and longed to see me again in london.
Yesterday, you didn't love me anymore.
Everything is so dark, right now.
*****
I knew for sure K was part of my past, because somewhere along the way you became the only one on my mind.
And I kinew it for certain a few days back, when I re-read patchwork paddington and behindthebear - someone needed the URLs and I gave them to him - and I felt sad.
And of course I felt sad, I was so, so sad when I wrote them. I was breaking in two - the way, I suppose, I am right now.
It's only natural that re-reading my pain reminds me of my pain then.
And after I read part of it, I closed the page, and that was that. I felt quite happy that I had something good and clean, and I didn't dwell on my past.
And then Things fell Apart.
Maybe I shoiuld have told you, but I guess maybe it was already too late.
Nine days ago you missed me and longed to see me again in london.
Yesterday, you didn't love me anymore.
Everything is so dark, right now.
