Sunday, October 09, 2005
A Bridge too Far
"... I didn't get back in touch... just so I could ask you for..."
It was a horrible allegation; it was a thought which had crossed my mind but which I had dismissed immediately, after my new resolution not to be quite so judgemental; not to repeat the mistake I had made once before.
It was a heavy burden to bear, to think that someone else thought so poorly of myself that they assumed I would think that poorly of them, that I would assume that friendship ressurrected had merely been for mercenary reasons. The words had been put into my mouth; I never spoke them.
(Alcoholic) circumstances prevented an immediate reply; the next day proved no better.
When finally there was a moment to breathe (as opposed to drink) I tried to explain myself more thorougly. And was met with silence.
*****
Silence spawns many different consequences; ranging from unwarranted assumptions to overzealous attempts to bridge that silence.
Silence is the enemy of the communicator.
In the aftermath, it seems the problem was spawned... beacause I coud not understnd silence....
It was a horrible allegation; it was a thought which had crossed my mind but which I had dismissed immediately, after my new resolution not to be quite so judgemental; not to repeat the mistake I had made once before.
It was a heavy burden to bear, to think that someone else thought so poorly of myself that they assumed I would think that poorly of them, that I would assume that friendship ressurrected had merely been for mercenary reasons. The words had been put into my mouth; I never spoke them.
(Alcoholic) circumstances prevented an immediate reply; the next day proved no better.
When finally there was a moment to breathe (as opposed to drink) I tried to explain myself more thorougly. And was met with silence.
*****
Silence spawns many different consequences; ranging from unwarranted assumptions to overzealous attempts to bridge that silence.
Silence is the enemy of the communicator.
In the aftermath, it seems the problem was spawned... beacause I coud not understnd silence....
