Friday, November 28, 2003
Well, DrGoat has come online. Not much happening here, except a steadily growing impatience to get on a plane and fly home. Surprisingly enough, the runup to the event comprises of endless all-night 10 hour shifts, giving testimony to the sheer skill and compassion of the NHS rota managers - not.
Trawling through my desktop I discovered a series of letters left for me to discover, which saddened me and filled me with remorse. But the fact remains - we can't unmake the past. And now I know too much. Every day in life is a chance to be taken, or lost. Cumulatively, too many battles lost cost the war.
There are many things that I still miss - I am human after all. But sitting here, utterly alone, typing this - I am at peace, and free from the ugly noise that used to cloud my eyes and ears.
And you were wrong - being christ-like doesn't involve power. Jesus came as a lamb to the slaughter and advocated turning the other cheek. If He had arrived wielding brute power and might, He would have arrived as an avenging titan and slain his adversaries, literally. And grown old surrounded by the spoils of victory - not died on a cross, alone and forsaken on Calvary.
Trawling through my desktop I discovered a series of letters left for me to discover, which saddened me and filled me with remorse. But the fact remains - we can't unmake the past. And now I know too much. Every day in life is a chance to be taken, or lost. Cumulatively, too many battles lost cost the war.
There are many things that I still miss - I am human after all. But sitting here, utterly alone, typing this - I am at peace, and free from the ugly noise that used to cloud my eyes and ears.
And you were wrong - being christ-like doesn't involve power. Jesus came as a lamb to the slaughter and advocated turning the other cheek. If He had arrived wielding brute power and might, He would have arrived as an avenging titan and slain his adversaries, literally. And grown old surrounded by the spoils of victory - not died on a cross, alone and forsaken on Calvary.
