Sunday, July 13, 2003
The world's looking a very strange place for me, tonight.
Went to a wedding yesterday, and it was beautiful. aren't they always? Playmobile couple, with beautiful voices to boot. Congratulations, and apologies for not being able to show for the dinner, Lucian. Didn't go for the dinner, because I decided to go for the concert instead. Figured that if I was going alone, maybe that was a small mitigation, and the playlist included almost every favourite of mine. In the end, although I tried to go alone, my mother typically tried to sit me with her friend, and friend's daughter, a local celebrity in the classical world. Was most unimpressed by said daughter who has half the country (namely XY) raving about her stunning good looks and talent on instrument, but most impressed by the concert. Never seen him play with such wild abandon before, closing my eyes, I could hear the tears / raindrops / joyful *oomphs* ... everything you never really hear at a classical concert - singing forth from a solitary grand piano. And it was beautiful.
Today. Met a friend, and once more-than-friend. Things didn't go as badly as she imagined they would, I think. I wasn't expecting bad or good, just figured it's good to stay in touch, try to stay friends, with people who are Worth it. Retrospectively, definitely worth it. She's still quirky, intelligent, funny, pretty and mildly unhinged. Deserves the world on a platter, and I hope she gets it! Well, perhaps not the world. I want the world for myself :)
After that, met with, another old friend, from longer ago. Caught up, yakked, moaned and groaned, and laughed. It's been a very long time since we spoke, and it was nice. I suppose I ruined it by mentioning my "ghost", which first friend firmly believes I should exorcise, to give me a shot at the world. Alice thinks so as well. Virtually everyone seems to think that is how it should be done; me, it wouldn't feel right, and doesn't seem necessary. que serra, serra. (?sp)
so tonight, alone in the dark, at my brother's computer screen, the world seems a very strange place indeed. I want to go and play my soul out on the piano, but the door is locked. sigh.
Went to a wedding yesterday, and it was beautiful. aren't they always? Playmobile couple, with beautiful voices to boot. Congratulations, and apologies for not being able to show for the dinner, Lucian. Didn't go for the dinner, because I decided to go for the concert instead. Figured that if I was going alone, maybe that was a small mitigation, and the playlist included almost every favourite of mine. In the end, although I tried to go alone, my mother typically tried to sit me with her friend, and friend's daughter, a local celebrity in the classical world. Was most unimpressed by said daughter who has half the country (namely XY) raving about her stunning good looks and talent on instrument, but most impressed by the concert. Never seen him play with such wild abandon before, closing my eyes, I could hear the tears / raindrops / joyful *oomphs* ... everything you never really hear at a classical concert - singing forth from a solitary grand piano. And it was beautiful.
Today. Met a friend, and once more-than-friend. Things didn't go as badly as she imagined they would, I think. I wasn't expecting bad or good, just figured it's good to stay in touch, try to stay friends, with people who are Worth it. Retrospectively, definitely worth it. She's still quirky, intelligent, funny, pretty and mildly unhinged. Deserves the world on a platter, and I hope she gets it! Well, perhaps not the world. I want the world for myself :)
After that, met with, another old friend, from longer ago. Caught up, yakked, moaned and groaned, and laughed. It's been a very long time since we spoke, and it was nice. I suppose I ruined it by mentioning my "ghost", which first friend firmly believes I should exorcise, to give me a shot at the world. Alice thinks so as well. Virtually everyone seems to think that is how it should be done; me, it wouldn't feel right, and doesn't seem necessary. que serra, serra. (?sp)
so tonight, alone in the dark, at my brother's computer screen, the world seems a very strange place indeed. I want to go and play my soul out on the piano, but the door is locked. sigh.
