Friday, July 11, 2003
My uncle's giving a recital tomorrow night, so my mum asked me if I wanted to get 2 tickets, better ask early if you do.
I remember yesteryear, when she asked me the same and I said yes, please. And had two tickets and the difficult decision of who to ask along. In the end I couldn't summon up the guts to ask You, since you probably wouldn't want to go anyway, and it might seem odd to you if I asked you since we weren't that close, (and all sorts of other lame excuses not to ask at all) so I asked someone else instead. I remember suffering countless inappropriate comments and questions by my late (but sweet!) grandfather about my supposed "girlfriend" and grinding my teeth in frustration; I could almost imagine my friend's teeth grinding as well...
And then, some time later you said you'd have loved to go, and I remember feeling completely - stricken. I'd asked the wrong girl. The one person I wanted to go with... had actually wanted to go with me.
And so, now history repeats itself. Except now I'm a little older, and a little wiser; and I'd rather not go at all, than go with the wrong person. I can't bring myself to.
I remember yesteryear, when she asked me the same and I said yes, please. And had two tickets and the difficult decision of who to ask along. In the end I couldn't summon up the guts to ask You, since you probably wouldn't want to go anyway, and it might seem odd to you if I asked you since we weren't that close, (and all sorts of other lame excuses not to ask at all) so I asked someone else instead. I remember suffering countless inappropriate comments and questions by my late (but sweet!) grandfather about my supposed "girlfriend" and grinding my teeth in frustration; I could almost imagine my friend's teeth grinding as well...
And then, some time later you said you'd have loved to go, and I remember feeling completely - stricken. I'd asked the wrong girl. The one person I wanted to go with... had actually wanted to go with me.
And so, now history repeats itself. Except now I'm a little older, and a little wiser; and I'd rather not go at all, than go with the wrong person. I can't bring myself to.
