Friday, April 09, 2004
Immovable
Sometimes it feels like I never left.
Mechanically going through the motions. Smile, wave, have a seat, physical exam, decision plan.
I, robot.
But then, there is the First Day. While I'm meccha-doctoring, when one of the nurses ?chats me up a bit. And some of them are a bit more physically affectionate than usual, involving me in their little teasing thingies with the other docs. She comments that I seem much more relaxed than before.
I find myself smiling. I suppose I am. Serious me, dissolving for a moment into silly me.
*****
What's with the five-star dividers anyhow. When did I start doing em. Mebbe i should make them part of my template.
*****
So I'm doing four night shifts over the bank holiday weekend eh. Frowns.
I guess the establishment figures that I'll be happy coming back from holiday so they can screw me over huh, a weeks night shifts before he goes, a week's when he returns. And he won't mind.
But I don't.
Eh?
I really don't. I guess I must have really enjoyed myself this holidays :o
*****
Somewhere in the scattered pieces of the puzzle he chances upon the darker entries.
Ah. That explains much. She has been forged in fire.
No singed soul, this. This is a Phoenix.
*****
The news comes as a shock.
Did you hear about G?
No, how's he doing?
He had angina! While he was on shift. He's in CCU now.
Tightness around his chest. Too close to home. One of Their Own, struck down on homeground.
Oh my God! Is he all right... he's too young. Too damn young.
Too young for angina. He's only 2 years older than me. One of Our Own.
Scary thoughts.
Move swiftly on.
Sometimes it feels like I never left.
Mechanically going through the motions. Smile, wave, have a seat, physical exam, decision plan.
I, robot.
But then, there is the First Day. While I'm meccha-doctoring, when one of the nurses ?chats me up a bit. And some of them are a bit more physically affectionate than usual, involving me in their little teasing thingies with the other docs. She comments that I seem much more relaxed than before.
I find myself smiling. I suppose I am. Serious me, dissolving for a moment into silly me.
*****
What's with the five-star dividers anyhow. When did I start doing em. Mebbe i should make them part of my template.
*****
So I'm doing four night shifts over the bank holiday weekend eh. Frowns.
I guess the establishment figures that I'll be happy coming back from holiday so they can screw me over huh, a weeks night shifts before he goes, a week's when he returns. And he won't mind.
But I don't.
Eh?
I really don't. I guess I must have really enjoyed myself this holidays :o
*****
Somewhere in the scattered pieces of the puzzle he chances upon the darker entries.
Ah. That explains much. She has been forged in fire.
No singed soul, this. This is a Phoenix.
*****
The news comes as a shock.
Did you hear about G?
No, how's he doing?
He had angina! While he was on shift. He's in CCU now.
Tightness around his chest. Too close to home. One of Their Own, struck down on homeground.
Oh my God! Is he all right... he's too young. Too damn young.
Too young for angina. He's only 2 years older than me. One of Our Own.
Scary thoughts.
Move swiftly on.
